Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Kowts XXVII

801. If I knew missing you was going to be a part of my life, I never would have let you in.


802. Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated..


803. If we ever love again, I swear I'd love you right.


804. The things guys say without notice... are the things girls remember the most 


805. The worst thing about love is, you can love whoever you want...but so can they.

Kowts XXVI

751. Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that  life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter how painful your situation might be, you can survive it.


752. Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more. - Erica Jong, 1942


753. It's easiest when I don't see him, I won't deny that. But, I just want to be able to see him without it hurting. I don't want him out of my life forever. I don't want to forget about him. I don't want him to forget me. I really, really don't.


754. I don't get attached. I don't want a relationship unless you can prove to me you're not all the same. No, your words don't mean shit to me. No, I don't trust you. No, I don't believe you. Promises are nothing but empty words to me. I know I'm not your one & only so don't tell me I am. No, my smile doesn't make your day. No, my laughter isn't music to your ears. No, I'm not too good to be true so start with the truth. If I'm what you want, tell me why & tell me often. Tell me you love me, but only if you mean it.


755. It's still there, you know? I can be totally happy and still have that part of my mind wondering how much better it would be if you were here. I don't think that's really going to change.


756. But, when my loneliness is through,I'm gonna find another you.


757. Everything I do with those other guys, I do so I can forget about you- even if it is only for one night.


758. I hate what you’ve done to me. You’ve made me afraid to fall in love, afraid to care for anyone, afraid to trust anyone. Ever since you left, after all the broken promises, I can’t trust anyone, I can’t get too close to anyone. I’ve built a wall so high around myself, no one can get in. You’ve made me like this. Every time someone new comes into my life, I distance myself so much from them, they leave. You’ve been the cause of all the dysfunction in my relationshipsand you have no clue, because I still love you so much, that I’ll never actually tell you any of this.


759. The ones depressed do not dress in black. The ones who believe they’re fat don’t announce it. The ones scared don’t scream. The ones struggling don’t show their scars. The ones hurting the most are the ones hidden.


760. I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but toassume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism.


761. Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone 
else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.

762. My heart may be made of stone, but that doesn't mean it can't break.


763.  Truth is, I never got over you. I don’t think I will.  Not anytime soon, at least. I may say that I like another guy, and I do. But you will always hold a place in my heart.


764. I'm in one of those moods that nothing is really wrong in my life, but my brain keeps on 
insisting that there is.Or maybe it's my heart that's doing the insisting. I can't really tell. You know that feeling?

765. Just because something isn't happening for you right now doesn't mean that it will
never happen. It means you're not ready for it yet.

766. Your worst battle is between what you know and what you feel.


767. How will we ever find love, if we don't ever leave the dark basements of our past? When do we stop being afraid and when do we take that leap of faith? When will we know it's time and what the hell are we suppose to do when it is time.


768. Don't let a few rips in your heart keep you from loving at all. 


769. Once you lose yourself, you have two choices. Find the person you used to be, or lose that person completely


780. Damaged people can be dangerous, because they know they can survive.


781. I am slowly falling apart.
I wish you’d take a walk in my shoes for a start.
And you might think it’s easy being me,
you just stand still, look pretty.

782. I often find myself wanting to be alone, but my biggest fear is that i will be.


783. Trust me, I know how it feels. I know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so no one can hear you. I know what it's like to wait for everyone to be asleep so you can fall apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end.I know exactly how it feels. 


784. So please, just be patient. I'm so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like I'm this strong girl who can get through everything, but inside I'm very fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering.


785. You don't need to know any of this. But, the things I don't reveal are the things I hold closest and fear losing the most. I work overtime keeping them veiled and camouflaged. You don't need to know that I walk around all day fearing the things that make me happy, and that I have been doing that for my entire life.


786. Obviously you don't know what the meaning "best friends" is.I'm not your third wheel, and if you want that, then I'll findsomeone else that treats me right. I'm not as scared to lose you as you think.


787. You & I will always be unfinished business.


788. I love people who make me laugh. I honestly think it's the thing I like most, to laugh. It cures a multitude of ills. It's probably the most important thing in a person.


789. It happens to everyone as they grow up. You find out who you are and what you want, and then you realize that the people you've known forever don't see things the way you do. And so you keep the memories, but you find yourself moving on.


790. So you failed. You wanna be really great? Have the courage to fail big & stick around. Make them wonder why you're still smiling.


791. In order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different.


792. Risk more than others think is safe. 
Care more than others think is wise. 
Dream more than others think is practical. 
Expect more than others think is possible.


793. And you give, and they take, and it's love that you want, but not love that you make. Save your heart for someone that's worth dying for, don't give it away. -Save Your Heart, Mayday Parade-


794. So what if it hurts me? So what if I break down? So what if  this world just throws me off the edge,my feet run out of ground? I've gotta find my place, I wanna hear my sound. I don't care about all of the pain in front of me, because I'm just trying to be happy. -Happy, Leona Lewis-


795. When you don't have love, it is like there's a party going on and everybody was invited except you, and you just happen to walk by that house in the rain.


796. The more you know who you are, and what you want, the less you let things upset you.


797. People of character do the right thing. Not because they think it will change the world, but because they refuse to be changed by the world.